Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
i'm back
i totaly forgot that i had this blog up and running and i might just kick it off by making some short comics. 1-2 pages of different stories i have. i should really start posting up here more often so i can get people to come read and enjoy my work. well off to make some art :D
Monday, December 21, 2009
Legend of the blue dragon moon
Ok due to money issues I won’t be adding new pages tell I get a new wacom tablet but that should not deture me from adding updates to let people know what the status is. So at least once a week I will Try to add new updates ideas and in hope I can get some people to find my site and enjoy the content on it.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Methood of my maddness 9/17
A mind like mine is hard to understand even to me. I try to understand how the world works but then it feels like I know even less then what I did before. I never think I’m smart because I know the vast amount of information in this world. So I often finding myself doing things to tinker with my mind to get it of the things at hand
But today… today I learn something new about this nice person but I can tell she was closed off and screaming in her mind to let all her demons out and yet don’t because she was used in the past because of that. The one thing I hate about being me is that I would want to help out everyone I know. I would lend my shoulder to anyone who wants to cry on. But when I hear this I know I can’t do anything but even my mental faults I try to overcome any thing in my way. As a result I’ve learn to become a better person. But one thing is that I can’t help someone, I can’t change someone else world. I can only show them the path. I can’t even show them I can only tell them where to look and when you understand this, you truly understand that u can’t do anything for other people. Sure I can show them a path to follow or a way to live. I can even give someone money and a place to stay but is that really changing their life? Or is it more less giving some one the tools so they can change their life. What if they don’t use it? What if they just want that simple fix, or easy way out?
Feeling depress or down on your self is easy. Saying that you are no good takes no effort in any part. But to truly understand and realize that the road of life is hard if u want the best outcome. But what would make it hard though. How would life be hard if you just don’t do anything but to follow someone else? Would life be yours to live? Or would your life be that person that telling you how to live? What if a man same with a golden ticket and say that this will give you everything you ever wanted in return… All u have to give up your rights as American? What would make it right for a person to control someone else? As a atheist I know that there no man made god. A eternal being made us in his image. But what I do believe is that we should understand there some force greater than us. And that neither man nor church, can tell us what we can do.
We have our own bubble of being. We can go with some of the great thinkers of our time. One of them say that life is but a dream with in a dream. We are all dreamers living in a land that was built on dreams of others and here for all the dreamers now and yet to come. If we see life in that aspic then we think of how much we want to change someone else world or “dream” we have to first understand our world. Once we know what our world is then we can understand how to do things in our world, then we can show people how to do the same.
But at the end we look at the simple saying.” You can lead a horse to water but you can’t make him drink.” You can give man the tools to make a utopia but u can’t make him build it. We all need to understand what we should do to live our life better as a result our life will be better. “Once you know how to change your world the rest will follow.” What I mean is people want what other have. You have a good life and you tell them all how to live a simple happy life then we will all will find a way to live happy.
Eh but that’s what’s going on in my head this morning. I hope it’s not too deep.
But today… today I learn something new about this nice person but I can tell she was closed off and screaming in her mind to let all her demons out and yet don’t because she was used in the past because of that. The one thing I hate about being me is that I would want to help out everyone I know. I would lend my shoulder to anyone who wants to cry on. But when I hear this I know I can’t do anything but even my mental faults I try to overcome any thing in my way. As a result I’ve learn to become a better person. But one thing is that I can’t help someone, I can’t change someone else world. I can only show them the path. I can’t even show them I can only tell them where to look and when you understand this, you truly understand that u can’t do anything for other people. Sure I can show them a path to follow or a way to live. I can even give someone money and a place to stay but is that really changing their life? Or is it more less giving some one the tools so they can change their life. What if they don’t use it? What if they just want that simple fix, or easy way out?
Feeling depress or down on your self is easy. Saying that you are no good takes no effort in any part. But to truly understand and realize that the road of life is hard if u want the best outcome. But what would make it hard though. How would life be hard if you just don’t do anything but to follow someone else? Would life be yours to live? Or would your life be that person that telling you how to live? What if a man same with a golden ticket and say that this will give you everything you ever wanted in return… All u have to give up your rights as American? What would make it right for a person to control someone else? As a atheist I know that there no man made god. A eternal being made us in his image. But what I do believe is that we should understand there some force greater than us. And that neither man nor church, can tell us what we can do.
We have our own bubble of being. We can go with some of the great thinkers of our time. One of them say that life is but a dream with in a dream. We are all dreamers living in a land that was built on dreams of others and here for all the dreamers now and yet to come. If we see life in that aspic then we think of how much we want to change someone else world or “dream” we have to first understand our world. Once we know what our world is then we can understand how to do things in our world, then we can show people how to do the same.
But at the end we look at the simple saying.” You can lead a horse to water but you can’t make him drink.” You can give man the tools to make a utopia but u can’t make him build it. We all need to understand what we should do to live our life better as a result our life will be better. “Once you know how to change your world the rest will follow.” What I mean is people want what other have. You have a good life and you tell them all how to live a simple happy life then we will all will find a way to live happy.
Eh but that’s what’s going on in my head this morning. I hope it’s not too deep.
Monday, September 14, 2009
Methood of my maddness=love
Life is odd, yet as much as I try to understand it I can't even grasp what it is. This little part is about love today.
I can't even understand why I think the way I do. I know I can't make every one happy. I know to me happy I have to take some falls and have other people take there falls but I don't want to. I want some one to enjoy every moment with so I don't have to make sure I make every one happy. is it wrong to think of this. I make things so hard for my self and often lose track of my goal. I forget to look down on the path so I won't trip. When I don't look I always get a rock of life in my way and I trip on it. And when I get up I look for my path and see that I was blinded by love so much I am not looking at that I need to do. In my life I've only can truly say my heart wanted 3 people in my life. Other people I dunno why but they made it deep with in me and it hard for me to say I love you to them because to say it, it feels like I'm not saying it but my soul is. It feels like every part of my body wants to scream it and to me I've never like to talk about my feeling like that. Every day I try to find a spark of what my soul yearns for in other people like a addict but I feel emptiness in most of the people I know. I've ran buy some people that what my soul yearns for but it more like a elision. Some one that I can't be with because roadblocks. No problem find a way across them. Well I've travel half way across the world from the start of my travels. From the small Gothic looking city of Syracuse NY. Now in Hawaii and next I dunno.
I've learn in my travels more about life and my self. I learn that looks are important because you can tell a lot about ones personality from that. You can tell if they are a party person and love to drink and smoke by there voice. But I don't go on some one by there looks alone. Because often it wrong on how some one look. But still I can't say thats where u look for love. I was told along time ago love can't be found, love can't be picked, you can't by love. The only way to find it is open ur heart and show some one who you are and how u are in life.
Byproduct of life. You meet some one and are friends, if that spark is there for both parties then see what it is. If it love or yearn to be with some one. Would it be bad to be with some one to just be with them? Well if you are then it's a lie that your telling your self. Maybe you don't wanna hurt that person because he/she loves you. Or maybe you both feel the same and yet to afraid to end things.
Why would u torment yourself so much for a lie. Would you be afraid to hurt there feeling or to be alone? Is it because she looks hot or great in bed? Or maybe you lived in the lie so long you don't know the truth. Your life is but a lie built on many lies. You say you love some one because the love is there but not the bond. That love you have for them is like a love to your family or coworkers. But we would never say I love you to our coworkers because it's a word for a strong emotional feeling between the two. But love is just a word to describe a feeling that we feel.
When I was felt love I felt a deep connection with that person. I felt noting in the world matters but that person. I can say I understand how a dog feels about his master that love him. That dog would move mountains to make his master happy. I look at what I can do to be happy with some one and I want that same feeling. I want some one I can not look and say wow she looks great but wow I would follow her to hell if it meant I can be by her side. I would do anything for her to show my love and loyalty to her.
But at the end there nothing in this world I know I can do to find this person I just have to let lady luck guide me to this path. Because I know at the end I will find what I've been looking for. :)
I can't even understand why I think the way I do. I know I can't make every one happy. I know to me happy I have to take some falls and have other people take there falls but I don't want to. I want some one to enjoy every moment with so I don't have to make sure I make every one happy. is it wrong to think of this. I make things so hard for my self and often lose track of my goal. I forget to look down on the path so I won't trip. When I don't look I always get a rock of life in my way and I trip on it. And when I get up I look for my path and see that I was blinded by love so much I am not looking at that I need to do. In my life I've only can truly say my heart wanted 3 people in my life. Other people I dunno why but they made it deep with in me and it hard for me to say I love you to them because to say it, it feels like I'm not saying it but my soul is. It feels like every part of my body wants to scream it and to me I've never like to talk about my feeling like that. Every day I try to find a spark of what my soul yearns for in other people like a addict but I feel emptiness in most of the people I know. I've ran buy some people that what my soul yearns for but it more like a elision. Some one that I can't be with because roadblocks. No problem find a way across them. Well I've travel half way across the world from the start of my travels. From the small Gothic looking city of Syracuse NY. Now in Hawaii and next I dunno.
I've learn in my travels more about life and my self. I learn that looks are important because you can tell a lot about ones personality from that. You can tell if they are a party person and love to drink and smoke by there voice. But I don't go on some one by there looks alone. Because often it wrong on how some one look. But still I can't say thats where u look for love. I was told along time ago love can't be found, love can't be picked, you can't by love. The only way to find it is open ur heart and show some one who you are and how u are in life.
Byproduct of life. You meet some one and are friends, if that spark is there for both parties then see what it is. If it love or yearn to be with some one. Would it be bad to be with some one to just be with them? Well if you are then it's a lie that your telling your self. Maybe you don't wanna hurt that person because he/she loves you. Or maybe you both feel the same and yet to afraid to end things.
Why would u torment yourself so much for a lie. Would you be afraid to hurt there feeling or to be alone? Is it because she looks hot or great in bed? Or maybe you lived in the lie so long you don't know the truth. Your life is but a lie built on many lies. You say you love some one because the love is there but not the bond. That love you have for them is like a love to your family or coworkers. But we would never say I love you to our coworkers because it's a word for a strong emotional feeling between the two. But love is just a word to describe a feeling that we feel.
When I was felt love I felt a deep connection with that person. I felt noting in the world matters but that person. I can say I understand how a dog feels about his master that love him. That dog would move mountains to make his master happy. I look at what I can do to be happy with some one and I want that same feeling. I want some one I can not look and say wow she looks great but wow I would follow her to hell if it meant I can be by her side. I would do anything for her to show my love and loyalty to her.
But at the end there nothing in this world I know I can do to find this person I just have to let lady luck guide me to this path. Because I know at the end I will find what I've been looking for. :)
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
my new website.
YAY today I've uploaded my website to my host site. I'm still thinking on what i should add to it but tell i do finish all of this i will have the comic up and all that other spiffy stuff by next weekend the most. i will add splash of color and cool art as i get to it and ultimately i will add a cool animation or 2 by the end of the year. but as far as right now I'm just happy that this is up and running. :)
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